I got the job and was made to feel welcome immediately. The small team of staff all individually did their best to make sure I didn't feel left out or awkward and answered all the questions I asked whenever they could. With such a fun team from all walks of life, the days were going fast. Not only had I been lucky enough to get this great job where I could earn commission on top of my wages but I was working with great people at a cool job with morals! A...Mazing!
After a week and I have I was just starting the second stage of my training. He is where things get iffy...so I learned we don't push sales or aggressively sell as I have said before however it turns out there is a big loop hole. A loop hole that started playing on my conscience. We weren't allowed to try and sell products unless the customer had a need for them, however, it was also my job to create a need for the customers.
After two days of nothing but thinking all day long at work and hardly sleeping at home I felt it in my gut, this isn't me. Sure I need a job, commission on top sounded fantastic, I could maybe save up and have a holiday!...but would I ever have fun on that holiday knowing I had 'created a need' for a vulnerable customer to basically help me hit my targets for the day?
I told them it wasn't for me. Everyone was so understanding and kind about it. I don't judge them for what they do or anyone for what they do for that matter, my job is to worry about myself and myself just cannot take advantage of people. Well...obviously I could, we all can but I can't get myself to sleep at night if I do.
I was very sad at first. I knew I had done the right thing for me and for them as I didn't want to waste their time training me for months. The thought of walking away from a job with so many wonderful perks after six months of job hunting, feeling low and a bit lost was very hard. I felt confused and uncertain the day I left. I felt like a teenager skipping school as I had become accustom to not being home during the day but I know I did the right thing for me.
I don't know what my next opportunity will be and I don't know exactly what to do until it comes along but I do know I wont be wasting my time worrying I have made the wrong choice. My mind asked a question and my soul answered. I have crossed everything that it won't be long until I find something but knowing myself and living by my morals and integrity are all I have to my name and there is no price, commission or prize that I will ever trade them in for.